I want to be ok.
Some days I really believe I can be ok.
Today is not that day.
Today I feel both small and fat.
Today I feel like I am failing in so many small ways.
Today I feel that I deserve my horrible, soul sucking job.
Today I feel so very alone.
I think this is ok... I think there are just going to be days like this and I'm just going to have to power through this.
I don't have a lot in reserve, so I hope I cycle up soon.
I hope for a lot of things, and hope is exhausting too.